A moment of....

A moment of reckless....

I was lured to tinking dat i could get a position in Raffles Place.. The place where i would love to belong.. where u see crowds of office pple... in suits.. in great attire... and there i saw..were a big bunch of young men & women.. some even younger than me... the smiles & friendliness.. i guess it's a lie after i was told to take up network marketing.. sounds familiar isnt it? .. i went for their talk (was being forced ok) took 1 hr like dat...Phui..! havin an antique thinkin.. i still find it unbelievable.. there sure are pple who made fortunes out of it... but it's definitely not me.. i knew it... so lets forget it... the deal's off..

Next, i took 1 day off.. (no pay) after being convinced by the job agency dat the employer was SOO eager to mit me up.. though i kip telling her "no la.. place too far!" she repeatly tried to convince me.. as i din wana wasted any chance, finally i agreed.. took a cab down fr queenstown mrt.. and interview was juz less than 15 mins.. i reckon im out... walking out of the building i felt so lost... in fact i realised i had to walk dwn the long pavement dat leads to the bus stop! with the sun glaring, i felt so dehydrated.. i told mysf.. no, tis isnt the one... i knw dat... im a lazy person.. hehe.. i managed to find a bus that dropped by BPP.. cool... took a longy ride while i looked at how many places i could go taking the bus.. it's bus 963 fyi..

Now im at hm shaking legs... tml muz definitely go wk & earn back the $ i spent on transport tdy!!! hehe..

COnclusion:
im not disheartened.. i knw my golden turn is not here yet.. i feel so much happier knwing dat he's supportive as i continue to seek... One thing i knw, i dun get panicked tokin to pple of higher status.. guess i tink it's e part time job dat gimmes courage.. keke.. now i knw dat i shd b picky in some areas..

To the dentist!

Finally plucked my fully-charged courage to the dentist to extract my rotten tooth dat has been clingin on.. it's not as painful as it seems.. its only after extracting it, i got hm, i started to feel a sharp ache in my gums.. Arughh... at least one thing is over.. one more to extract.. phew! from the doc's description, tis could be much worse! the tooth grew inside my gums & one of my teeth has blocked it.. cool... i tink i may need a minor operation..~ well... there goes my hard-saved $$$..

Tml im startin wk le..it's a temp job..nothing special.. i agreed to the job coz i need $$ & i need to kip mysf occupy..hehe..! the agency told me i can quit anytime as long as i gif them notice like 1 day etc, so i can still go for interviews.. how come i always end up w temp or contract jobs? *puzzled*

Bloggin is so popular now!

It seems like most pple hv started to blog alot.. and there has been a gradually increase, a popularity habit by some 'weirdos' to post some funny pics, stories. I loved it when im entertained by them.. cool.. these 'fatty' pple sure have courage.. dun they worry pple either making fun of her body or condemning her opinions? On the other hand, im amused by her courage and pple even adore her pics & becum her fans. *faint* i could never do it my whole life. NEVER!

and i was very free tdy & came upon a bloggin site..
click! click..!

http://sisterfurongjiejie.blogspot.com/

enjoy & laugh out loud...

National Day!!

Happy 40th National Day, Spore!!

I saw some pple wearing red + white at orchard tdy.. is it a love symbol dat they love Spore muchies?? cool...

You are my country... You are my life..

In deep thots...

In deep thots...

In the past, i have always accept things as it was.. i took watever dat has been laid out for me.. I have no opinions of my own.. and agreed w wat others say.. tryin to be amiable, i acted according to orders.. i had a conventional thinking.. dat was me..~

Havin a conversation w my advisor, Alex juz now.. i understand mysf betta.. he has sort of revealed a side of my eagerness to explore my capabilties.. i wondered if i had one in the first place.. im tired of trying.. mb not even feel like tryin.. i told him my worries & mentioned i get panicked easily.. but he did place a deep reflection of mysf wif his powerful reasonings... Y shd i look down on mysf..? if i have look down on mysf wif out tryin.. i have oredi lose half of the battle.. hmmm.. true.. if only i was given a chance to choose..

He suggested working in a events company.. i did tink of it too.. as a design diploma holder, it sounds logical to look into dat area.. but the prob is, how shd i start to kip the ball rollin? i dun knw where to start.. it's tough.. i wish there's someone who can help me.. GOD

I would love to have support fr my kins.. i knw my parents are not goin to accept the fact of doin things insanely.. Alex has given me much hope.. hmmm...it's so cool to speak w pple who are willing to listen & help.. to pull my income up, i shd start plann on a job dat offers me numerous opportunities to climb. actions speak louder than words! i cant rely on my spouse forever.. if im able to climb higher, my spouse wun have a hard life too.. im sorry if i sound like i have been pressuring u much.. tdy our discussions on our future were real. im wking towards OUR goal.


U and me in 3 years time! I cant resist but envy these pics!

incredible?

To: XY

This page is delicated to XY...

So many things we have gone through together as a couple.. witnessed so many of ur dark secrets! (u knw wat they are k..) ok dear.. after tis mth i realised how much u are so impt to me.. cant believe it.. we have been together for 6 mths! time passed in a wink... juz like how it feels like waiting for july to come.. now, im waiting for Nov/dec to arrive... i have so many things i wana do w ya.. cycling, gym, kayaking, swimming.. alot alot more!

To maintain a long distance r/s needs a lot of effort.. wat we are goin through is the stage where we are still in the honeymoon period.. but things may not be dat easy as the r/s stretches longer.. i hope we can wk together & then on an important day of our lives, hand in hand to the aisle..

Lookin at others' wedd photos made me envious.. i wish one day, i can get to wear the beautiful gown.. and standing beside me is... you! Marryin me is definitely not easy.. u have alot of obstacles to pass..*wink* kekeke...

there is not a single day i nvr think of u in my heart....

insomnia Again..

Im currently suffering fr Insomnia...wat have i been tinking so much dat i cant get to slp almost every nite? You knw, she knws, he knws... everyone knws who im tinkin abt all tis while.

Hint: I missed the lil' late nite conversations, the loud & shrilling laughters, the tempting "potatoes + luncheon meat" ..

wat a spendid day i had tdy... scanning through hippy clothes at orchard w a ticklish heart.. included: met up w HL & a mysterious guy fr internt she knew.. then late evening mit lian while HL went to mit her bf.. we had a hearty conversatn.. giggling at our own conversations. ermmhh.

im eyeing some pretty stuffs.. so i cant wait to get a job fast! the thot of goin back to my ex-co runs through me awhile ago.. i dun knw y... mb i tink im sick of goin for interviews or shd i say i have no confidence in mysf? i can still picture mysf goin back to e same old place... the same old pple.. surprisingly, my ex colleagues still rem me, they kal/msg me.. i feel so 'highly' appreciated.. hmm.. i tink im goin to kal my bozz nx wk.. P.S: da sao, dun scold me!

have been bz these few days, mitting frens.. passing them souvenirs.. and i realised i forgt to buy some for my ex colleagues.. those who had treated me good before..

If u have promise to return early.. dun break it.. coz only u have the power to make me more cheerful...


"me & lian"




bedtime now...



dreaming of a betta tmlo...*wink*

time checked: 4 am sharp, i can hear birds singing.. still very awake...wat's next??

searching in progress...

searching in progress... 1,2,3

Tdy is the 2nd day i touched dwn to Sg.. and i oredi have an interview waiting for me tdy.. i spent two hrs plus tryin to convince the manager dat im up to the job...Many questions were voiced out by her & answered brillantly by mi..i hope so.. i was nervous & cold like ice cream.. ~ finally she let me leave after testing my ang mo... sorry to kip da sao waiting & she wasnt even annoyed w me... hee.. pai seh hor...~ it doesnt matter if i get the job coz i still got lots of time to find one gd one! hehe..juz dat i will be bored at hm lo.. frankly speaking, i hated interviews where it seems like im tryin to promote mysf as a useful product.. i hated the greeny eyes of the managers when they mention dat i have no wk experience... arguhhh..

Watever it is, i still maintain a little hope dat they will kal me.. hehe..

It's a brand new start.. im goin to strive... im goin to wk hard.. no more 'fake' mcs for me... kekeke.. dear muz wk hard too.. these 2 days may have been unbearable.. but soon u will get used to it.. will support u all the way... left with 4 mths le.. and soon u will return.. hope everytin wks well for us.. ur results & my job.. Rem, u are my lighter dat lights up my life..wait, dun get the wrong idea.. i dun smoke... ^_^

Parting..but not goodbye forever..

Parting... in 2 countries... again... however..im contented that 1 mth i was there.. indeed..
All i can say..this 1 mth has been overcome by my negative fears in the past.. i reli enjoyed being wif u..yes.. i mean it.. although at times im being treated invisible.. but gett' to knw u more, i knw u have ur routines to clear.. so do I.. e.g my friendster... hee... i love u bites by bites... pls keep our memories in ur heart.. shall wait here for u in 4 mths time.. sayonara!

Our 6 mths Anniversary dinner... cheers!

1st lesson at QUT

My 1st lesson at QUT...

class starts at 10 am.. nv had the feeling of lookin forward to sch for a Very long time..hehe..was delighted to be walkin to sch hand-in-hand wif my bf.. lectures are specially boring..but i kinda stared blurry at the lecturer even though nothing goes in the brain.. cool...( as though i reli understand a shit he's sayin which i dun..)

ytd we managed to spurge out a decent meal for dinner.. 'chao ta' calamari rings, ham, eggs, bacon, egg noodles etc... helped ourselves w a whole lot of icre-cream topped w strawberry toppings & banana split...yummy... dear aso made a kal to his mummy for advice on cookin porridge, fried bee hoon... hmmm... looks like cookin has become our interest.. lol.. im becomin much like a typical housefly..oops..i mean housewife... kekeeke

to date, i bought alot of stuffs...my whole baggage full of beautiful stuffs for my kins, frens, pple.. and not forgetting..mysf.. hmm...Damn gross! i need to highlite... these 2 weeks has been bz stuttling w all the clothes at most shops but all were too large for me!! im so pissed off.. esp those skirts dat cost only 10 bucks.. gahh...

have been lazier than before..slumped up to bed after dinner..and then woke up to have another big scoops of ice-cream.. hmpf.. i hope i din put on weight on my tummy...

BBq on a cold weather!

Imagine the wind blowing while waiting for the chicken wings to be done..! Yes.. we were havin a bbq here..on a cold weather.. no doubt of a weather like tis..cool..we were havin teppanyaki bbq in one of the famous park (south bank).. there's a man-made beach in front of us.. and guess wat..two little duckings swam towards our direction as we were bbq our dinner..cool... how i wish i can bbq them for dinner too.. roasted ducks..hehe.. 11 pple of us.. helpin out w the dinner.. the menu for e nite were: chicken wings, lamp chop, prawns, mushrooms, hotdogs, sweet corn, bananas w melted chocolate, masmallows... wow... sumptous...!

I loved to be surrounded by many pple, giggling w one another jokes, tok cracks (esp fr dearie).. it's so wonderful.. even though i juz knw them not long, they are juz wonderful pple i met here..

Dear has been a 'good' bf... helpin out w lunch, dinner, the clothes... hmm.. i can trust him w the chores in future..hor..? lol..

me at aussie

Im bloggin tis in Aussie finally !!!

A recap of my first wk in aussie:
the first day was a tired day after i arrived in Brisbane as i had juz purely 2 hrs of slp in the plane.. dear brought me walked ard... south bank, crossed the bridge..to the city..got some groceries for our dinner, watched war of the worlds.. the cinema was free seating..and big! we spent the rest of the few days at Gold coast..stayed at sufers motel.. the first day at GC was at pacific fair.. a shoppin town for shopp alcoholics like me! i spent quite alot there though the tops & bottoms were abit...too BIG size for a petite me! woo...

2nd day at GC was at movieworld where u get to see looney tunes characters ..and batman, austin powers, matrix.. watched the police acadamy show tat was trilling & humorous.. and there was tis all stars parade where all characters posed for a gd shoot.. took the batman ride, roller coaster ride, watched the 3D animation.. cool... managed to watch my fav cartoon character: tweety bird!!

The followin day was at dreamworld..it's a world of thrilling rides.. reli scare the wits out of me.. was psycho by bf to sit the ride 'wipeout'! watchin others screamin throughout the ride..goose pimples run through me...but i still managed to tell mysf it's juz a 5mins ride!! ..and i did it!!!i sat twice!! imagined flyin up the sky 360 degrees! i couldnt have done it wif out my bf 's company..
and the terrifyin cyclone coaster ride was far more scary i could imagine! we aso took the gold coast train ard the small forest.. and aso to the Australian wildlife..fed the kangaroos and took some snap shots of the koala bears too..and the farmyard where we saw some familiar animals like pigs, chickens, cow, sheep, goats..

Our last day at GC was at Harbortown..a bigger shopp town as compared to pacific fair.. the things there are mostly on sale..but sad to say..their sizes dun fit me!! bought a few stuffs onli.. bf bought a pair of adidas sneakers & billibong bag.. Now..who's the shoppin queen here..?hmm.. as we were carrying too much stuffs & our baggage.. we decided to come back another day to wipe out the last few stores dat we din get to shop.. and back home was soo nice..

Met up wif some of bf's frens studyin at aussie & catched " bewitched" w them.. loving pple.. we aso had a share of our dinner together in the kitchen where each of us contributed some groceries.. i witnessed a sense of belongin & group effort.. dinner was great.. home cooked dishes by a fren's dad.. i peeled some onions & bf washed some of the dishes..everyone's cooperative.. cool.. we are havin a bbq tml & everyone has chipped in some $ .. went to the market & supermarket together ytd to buy bbq stuffs.. it's such an enjoyable day wif no worries of tml.. except..wat to eat lata.. lol.. i missed mummy's home cooked dishes..

how i wish there's a bowl of laksa, chicken rice, carrot cake in front of me right now!haha... tis past wk has made me a home-oriented woman.. washed the dishes, clothes & prepared dinner.. things i seldom do in SG..!!

COnfession

Introduction of Princess Tan Mui Mui:
There's these few things TRUE abt me dat u gotcha knw:

• emotional like a freak
• Naive
• cant tolerate bad attitude, rude beings
• im a lousy decision -maker
• gets nervous when havin to ponder over difficulties
• not enuf slp will cause Xtreme blur ness, silence & prone to sayin unrelated stuff most of the time.. pardon me!
• do not like taken for granted..
• brood over split milk..all the time
• lazy bum..ZZZzzz
  
• still love to be pamper wif small gifts, kisses, hugz.. pls take note k..

So..if u reli dun mind all these.. u have to accept me... =)

Everyday the world is changin & im always seekin + learning.. hopin i will excel further..

the last few days have caused bits of unhappiness betw us.. but after goin through these tough times, im more excited to knw dat im stronger and not weaker than before.. Do not let our past blindfold us.. the past is a marking for us to learn to handle our r/s.. u have to knw, u are not the only one hangin on.. i am too..

Tml is my last day..any last regrets?..nope.. i juz cant be bothered atittude.. these few days have been a great wk.. reli packed for me.. had genki sushi wif rain & eileen ytd nite, the day before was out wif huilin for dinner & tml i'll be mitting my 'big' bro for dinner! woohoo~ juz 4 more days & im out of SG.. on a plane lookin for my dear!

every sat has become a boring day for mi

every sat has become a boring day for mi.. most of my gd frens a/c bfs.. some i havent contact wif have MIA.. as usual i was at hm..browsin & surfing net... taking a long nap... etc

Tml i wil be watchin Initial D wif eileen..plann to mit early to go bk our tix..! hopefully we can chop the best seats!! haha..our 38's attitude!!

Suddenly crossed my mind dat although his presence may not b wif me but his love is.. i can still lead a carefree life.. juz like being unattached.. i wouldnt mind it at all.. i cant compare my LDRS to other r/s ..

Well, there is no way to define love, but i guess when the gals here talk abt "who loves who more" on a relatively basis, they really mean "who SHOWS and loves who more"... U know, it's quite one thing to talk abt giving without expecting returns, and another to practice it... then again why is it wrong to expect reciprocity? It's a very natural human reaction..

I find it hard to imagine, how can a gal open her heart to love somebody, (running the risk of being vulnerable to hurt in the process), and yet not take it to heart when this loved one doesn't show his love? I mean, he may show that he wants u or cares for u, but that's not the same as showing he NEEDS u... and when u realise u actually need this man, it's very very natural for feelings of insecurity, and all that "i think he doesn't love me as much as i love him" kind of set in....well, i knws he loves me.. and I guess deep in him, he does care, but juz his male nature that makes him incapable of expression..
To me, a foundation has always been impt in a r/s..wif out it, wat could be carry on..