COnfession

Introduction of Princess Tan Mui Mui:
There's these few things TRUE abt me dat u gotcha knw:

• emotional like a freak
• Naive
• cant tolerate bad attitude, rude beings
• im a lousy decision -maker
• gets nervous when havin to ponder over difficulties
• not enuf slp will cause Xtreme blur ness, silence & prone to sayin unrelated stuff most of the time.. pardon me!
• do not like taken for granted..
• brood over split milk..all the time
• lazy bum..ZZZzzz
  
• still love to be pamper wif small gifts, kisses, hugz.. pls take note k..

So..if u reli dun mind all these.. u have to accept me... =)

Everyday the world is changin & im always seekin + learning.. hopin i will excel further..

the last few days have caused bits of unhappiness betw us.. but after goin through these tough times, im more excited to knw dat im stronger and not weaker than before.. Do not let our past blindfold us.. the past is a marking for us to learn to handle our r/s.. u have to knw, u are not the only one hangin on.. i am too..

Tml is my last day..any last regrets?..nope.. i juz cant be bothered atittude.. these few days have been a great wk.. reli packed for me.. had genki sushi wif rain & eileen ytd nite, the day before was out wif huilin for dinner & tml i'll be mitting my 'big' bro for dinner! woohoo~ juz 4 more days & im out of SG.. on a plane lookin for my dear!

every sat has become a boring day for mi

every sat has become a boring day for mi.. most of my gd frens a/c bfs.. some i havent contact wif have MIA.. as usual i was at hm..browsin & surfing net... taking a long nap... etc

Tml i wil be watchin Initial D wif eileen..plann to mit early to go bk our tix..! hopefully we can chop the best seats!! haha..our 38's attitude!!

Suddenly crossed my mind dat although his presence may not b wif me but his love is.. i can still lead a carefree life.. juz like being unattached.. i wouldnt mind it at all.. i cant compare my LDRS to other r/s ..

Well, there is no way to define love, but i guess when the gals here talk abt "who loves who more" on a relatively basis, they really mean "who SHOWS and loves who more"... U know, it's quite one thing to talk abt giving without expecting returns, and another to practice it... then again why is it wrong to expect reciprocity? It's a very natural human reaction..

I find it hard to imagine, how can a gal open her heart to love somebody, (running the risk of being vulnerable to hurt in the process), and yet not take it to heart when this loved one doesn't show his love? I mean, he may show that he wants u or cares for u, but that's not the same as showing he NEEDS u... and when u realise u actually need this man, it's very very natural for feelings of insecurity, and all that "i think he doesn't love me as much as i love him" kind of set in....well, i knws he loves me.. and I guess deep in him, he does care, but juz his male nature that makes him incapable of expression..
To me, a foundation has always been impt in a r/s..wif out it, wat could be carry on..

have i been over -react?

My gd fren has juz return fr aussie last wk..and she had shared wif me her experiences durin her stay at mel & Gold coast... her trip seems interesting..i hope mine will be too.. she bought a cutie sling bag for me... tink i will get her something nice too..since she lent me her luggage bag & clothes..so nice of her... I tink i will forget abt the trip to sydney if it's goin to cost too much... coz i rather be spending $ on 'visible' goods.. than be troubled over my cash flow...
Have i been over-reacting? i realised im not at all perfect..although i have tell mysf to be more understanding... there's still something bugging me...

Ohh.. now dat i juz pack all the neccessary things in my luggage..i have been ponderin if i can carry it back to SG since im comin back on a wkday..who can come & fetch me up & pick up my luggage... cool... i tink im in dead shit...

"i believe that girlfriends are to be pampered n cherished.. and while u're being pampered and cherished..u'll know that u've finally found THE ONE."
"when u are loved and accepted by someone who love u as u are, u will eventually love him too."
"while it's a blessing 2 be loved, it's even better when both parties are in love with each other"
"there's no perfect guy or gal in a r/s. Make the best of what you find in your other half."

Very meaningful quotes.....

Jia you!

Jia you! jia you!!! bf....i have confidence in u!!

Raining cats & dogs^^....I was dying hard tinkin who can i ask for help to share their umbrella wif me... and i thot of rain..i was pinnin my last hopes on her..but too bad she was not nearby yet... ~and then things get complicated as i blindly follow a colleague ( i met at the bus-stop..neither of us had umbrellas..) to see a doc before headin wk.. ME AGAIN to the doc's?? hmmm...she's in a pretty bad shape.. well, i had my cramps so i thot mayb i shd see a doc too...so we had our morn spent drinkin kopi & teh..then waited for our turn at the clinic.. wat a pal rain has been..even though she juz recover fr her illness..she still brought umbrellas for us..~ so touched... wat a good da sao she has been... fellows, pls learn fr her...hebe...~
Conclusion: The power of friendship...~ hehe...

Pretty upset dat i din knw my mum has taken a day off for her check-up until i happen to kal her office.. i wish i could be there at least..even to one of her check-ups.. she was here when i was sick..preparin tonic, squeeze orange juice for me...but i was not there even for her routine check-up...not even one..!
Conclusion:brainstorm me !!!

Ytd had a long 3 hrs conversation w my bf.... coolx...we sure had alot to tok...~ and cant bear to hang up even when the clock ticks 1am... but no choice..~tmlo has to wk wor... nvm..we can still chat in july..even if it means losing sleep..tata!
Conclusion: we are hopeless...so in love...crazy in love..

Home alone

~~ home alone~~

cool.. nobody can spy wat i am act doin..im in fact doin... nothing..reli...~~"smirk"
haix..i slpt till 11 am then continue slpin again..due to the drowsy medication by the doc.. im feelin all groggy & lamely..
It's been 3 days since i last stepped into my dreary office... coolx!
Wat i have been doin behind the scenes...
snorting my shit out of my nose..terrible flu is gett' my way of breathin... not forgett' my teary eyes... :(
bitter sore throat..gargle my watery, bitter medicine.. wat i eat has become tastleless...sigh..
hopefully, by tml i can recover & brave my last 3 wks in dat damn creepy office...

It's juz 3 weeks more...! kaoz..i have oredi packed some of my stuffs in my luggage..still pendin for E's bag she's lendin....then im set to finish packing..hmmm..so many stuffs to brin ther...~

My bf suggested we make a trip to sydney..i nodded excitedly.. but then again.. i cant be dwn for the SG sale..~and it's worth it... he highlite dat we haven try *smoochin* on air...hehe..i add dat last line...~ cool...i love to be on air wif him....still rem when both of us took the ride at escape... he said some xXx lines in the air...hoow...! The culprit ->i was the one who suggested it....*sneaky smile*

hope i wun fall sick in aussie..i's juz plain cruel to me & him...

Im readin the recipe now & tryin to absorb as much info as i could to whip up a gd meal for him...im left wif 2 wkends to struggle aimlessly...who would like to be my guinea pig first??

"i pledge to love u all my life...and will never forsake u in the midst of any misfortune"

mc queen!!!

mc queen!!! i have to admit im one... im plann taking 3 days mc tis mth...shh.....clear mc..haha..

I juz cant wk but tinkin abt my trip..im gg sn..yes!!! 3 wks time, i'll be indulgin in the cooling breeze of aussie air...the oceans, the shopp, the love....~~ paradise..dat's wat i kal it... Im feeling blessed... ~ gotta miss my family, mum's cooking, frens' company heaps...

im truely glad i have endure the hardship of loneliness for 5 mths...!!! it's so great... up to date, we have been clingin on to tis LDR for 5 mths... cool.... the first battle is over.....! we have won....

Hmm..im not on gd terms w some of my colleagues..the only pple i have bear grudges on are those malaysians/PR... i dun care a damn abt them anymore.. since it's my last mth, i will juz create havoc.... i bite..i hate..i curse..so dun try it..!(except my bf..hehe..)

countdwn:28 days

countdwn:28 days+*+*+*

Things i did tdy:
work+work+work= $
look at his pics & msgs
giggle secretly at his mushy msgs
watched Madagascar ( rated V.gd!)
shopp: bought 2 tops + a skirt

Things dat happen to me the past few days:
spoken to boss abt my trip
pc down for 3 days!(damn)
final decision to my boss (relieved)
went to surf net at arcade/Lan shop
to chat w bf for an hr
cpu sent to office for my IT specialist to fix
pc working, more powerful!!!
Thanks to Rain's beauty skills..

Im on cloud 9......(^_^)
so many great things happen to me