honey Moon~

On Good Friday...
woke up quite early to mit dear at bishan & then headed to Serangoon Park's church to attend morn mass wif his mum, sis & aunt.. After dat,we went shopp at twn...It may be a simple day at orchard, juz walking ard, but it's different when im holding his hands... in e late evening, went to a bbq organised by the church wif Des, Rain... The food was great...hmm.. I loved bbq food....!!

On Saturday...
Mit up wif dear, des, rain to Sentosa..was plann to go to the beach for picnic but too bad it was having a downpour when we stopped by to take some fotos at Orchid garden.. we ran for shelter at a same spot wif a bride, her groom, two photographers inside a enclosed room... !! after waiting for a while, we decided to have our picnic inside the room!!! set out the mat on the floor, wif sandwiches sponsored by rain, chips & water by me...had our mini picnic inside the room!! wif the bride, her groom, two photographers staring at us!!! oh... seems like they were pretty disappointed by the sudden downpour... while we were enjoying our feast happily...!! hmm... after the rain stopped, headed to the beach to take some more pics... then took the cable ride back to harbor front... hmm..it was a spendid day!!!! Long time nv sit in a cable car!!!!! so hapie!

On Palm Sunday...
Im touched dat my dear made an effort to wake up early to attend my church...as ytd he returned hm late after sending me to my doorstep.. I prayed to God sincerely...pls allow our love to last forever... ~ It has been raining these two days dat our initial plans are ruined... ~ so sad..but well, we had more private time wif each other ....~ I loved when u hugged me & kissed my forehead & tugged me to sleep & stroked my hair & then whispered to me "good nite"....

The first day!!!

It's a sunny day with lots of sunshine on my face!!.... (^_^)

The first moment i saw my dearie at the doorstep, i wish i could cuddle in his arms immediately..of coz i did not... I tried to act cool when he walked in before i hugged him tightly in my arms..The feeling is juz too great!! My dearie bought some nuts (product of Aussie) & a surf top for me! thanks!!!

In the late aftern, (after gett' my mc) we went to the private OG sale..Alot of crowds & the queue was VERY long... We shopped for my stuffs..--> got a white winter jacket, an OP bag, bras, face products & a mango top..hehe... ~ thanks dearie for his patience, waited 2 damn long hours wif me at the cashier... ~ and i was the only one complaining of tired legs...~ He's definitely someone i could bring along for shopp my stuffs..coz he will be ard to give me his sincere advice, always looking out for the best stuffs for me & participate in my shopping sales too!!! hehe... It's reli sweet of him... not many guys can do dat, i believe!!! Im reli lucky to find him among the men i met in my life...

Tmr i will be attending 'Good friday' mass wif him, his aunt & sis...may be a bit awkward as i seldom chat wif her sis & aunt.. well, but i will definitely try to get along wif them.. I still have to thank his aunt personally..!!!

Finally we can walked back home at the drain again!!!! haha.... (*_^)

10,9,8,7,6,5,4,3,2,1,0

10,9,8,7,6,5,4,3,2,1,0... !!!! BOOM!!!!
Im counting to myself...

Juz to kip mysf occupied meanwhile, i posted some threads at SB's forum.. inclusive of some comments & suggestions for some heart-breakees, loners, love addicters, marriage breakers, pain-killers.. Hmm..cant believe there are women who got involved wif married men.. and wives too? wat is the world coming to?.. and love-triangles?.. My, even other horrible stuffs..

Reading their stories, i realised there's so much we have to face in life.. It's gd to learn fr pple who are willing to share.. Am I able to brave the storm for the next 20 years?... I guess life isn't a bed of roses..so many decisions to make, times of despair...$$$ broke...~

SOmehow, I juz feel so lucky... bleah..compared to many... dats coz my turn is not here yet...~

~...My dear replied me with an impressive ans dat i have to admit in silence, i admitted defeat..! " If I was afraid of loneliness there, i wouldn't have been single for the last 7 years.."~

~ Disappointment drowned me when i cant be the first to grab hold of u!!!! hehe~ nevertheless, there's still tml... I wish i could be at the airport, the first to catch ur smile... the first to pinch u!!! wah....im juz kidding la...~ Juz to show u how much ur presence means to me ma..

Tmlo... we shall tour ard SG & eat till we drop!!!! The food u have missed!!

Happy 2nd mth dear!!

Merry merry!! cheerios to our 2nd month anniversary!!!

So sweet of him to send me a card to my office by post all the way 6173km fr Brisbane to wish me 2nd month anniversary! U are so adorable..Do u knw your card makes my day?..was feeling kinda gloomy at wk...if not for ur surprise, i would have pull a sulky face all e way till 6pm... thankie dearie!!!

someting's bothering me...

To be or not to...
sometimes it's a dilemma to choose whether to be frank wif the other party.. im definitely not those who tell a good lie... it's been bothering me too much abt frankness...~ i dun knw how i shd face tis prob... i juz pray dat all these are not affected...

recently,I just had a heart-to-heart talk with ****. Is it true that we shouldn't divulge our past too much? wif-out my past, i won't be me now... I wont be stronger than before if not for the unhappiness dat befalls me 11/2 yrs ago....

I personally feel this is very antiquated thinking. As of now, I always share every aspect of my life wif pple whom i trust and find it difficult to keep secrets, if any at all... I juz spill the beans to pple i knw can be trusted...but i nv realised how pple feel towards my secrets instead...Who are we to judge a person if he or she has done the rite tingy?

call me a naive person...I have always been one ~ have i been tinking too much lately?... Am i wondering tings too much unnecessarily?.. hey...wait a min, is my PMS coming soon?...

dream of u!!!

hmm..had a terrible nitemare dat left me crying in my sleep!!!! i woke up to see tears on my face...and immediately got up to see my hp... and saw his msg...saw wat he sent me & realised it's juz a dream..i smiled to mysf... i dun knw y sometimes we juz had a bond in a way... when my emotions got over me...so "qiao" he happened to msg me wat i wana hear from him...

The love virus is spreading in me too..hee~

Tis dream will never come true...hee..~

days~ hours~mins~secs~

weeks~days~ hours~mins~secs~SOON!!!! welcome home in 5 days time...~

Hmm...it's fri again....and im now at my pc typing tis out...havent been out these days... it's juz so nice to sit comfortable on my chair...chatting...wif him of coz..!

My stupid bozz gave me some stupid wk to do, tink highly of me???...some shit work.... i cant tolerate his tone & remarks...when he wants sometink to be done, he wld juz demand u to scarifice ur time!!! and he juz hath care... as long as i produce it on time, he will juz stand at my desk afterwards...and struck a conversatn wif me ..haha...everytime i have to entertain him...he reli like to tok to me abt useless stuffs...like when im goin to intro gals to him..hey bozz! im not wking at a model agency!!where can i get u pretty & tall gals?... no wonder he's still single till now...high standards.. hmmm....dun tink anyone wld go for him even if he's filthy rich...he has a foul mouth, believe me..the moment he sees me, he always end up irritating me & the others.. haha..he dun deserve my respect..~ bleah... sometimes i tink it's fun to suan him back..haha..~ bye bye bozz, no one is goin to do ur shit work in a few mths time... sorry i din lose my cool juz now.. juz tot i shd vent my grudges here!!! haha!!!~

Haiz.. so i din get my hp after all... gotta wait for m1 promotion..sometimes it juz gets nowhere asking for someone's help... u pin hopes on it & u get disappointment...

Im not a career-minded kind of gal... i prefer to have time of my own to do my own stuffs... i prefer to relax... i wonder 10 yrs down the road... wat wld my life be...? i dun want work to control my life... i want my time spend well wif family, bf, frens... it's always hard to find a dream job... i dun knw wat i want to.. juz let time decide my fate...~ sounds abit pathetic huh.... it's abt a yr since i join this co... *~I DUN LIKE TIS JOB~* still got 3 more mths....hmm...and i will be at somewhere enjoying the cool breeze, the lovely sky, the happiness of us.. the world will belong to the two of us...

last ting to add, so nice of mum to buy an air purifier for the family to help relieve stress...she's a sweet mum..and she definitely makes a gd wife & mum...she rocks!.. i want to be like her one day too! :P~

New*haircut

Juz got mysf a new haircut!! hee...too tempting to cut my fringe....saw those jap magz..woo! those gals reli look so cute & sweet!!! but it dun seem to wk on me lei. :)~ haha... i looked younger, i hope!!! sometimes i still loved to act cute.. knwing im goin 24!!!..prob dats me... i loved attention... i loved being young... i loved to dress young too..of coz cant fight off wif those teenages years!!... but i dun wana find mysf looking older than my bf in a few yrs time!! he has tis boyish look, u knw...hee~.. esp gals aged faster... so gals, rem to take care of ur skin & diet... im starting to wori..i got a tummy.!!.luckily, it isnt obvious.... trying to sound a little glad...~

boi, u are back next week!.. sori frens, cant entertain ya from next thurs till 2nd Apr..hope u understand hor...~ will compensate wif lotsa hugz nx time (to gals only, guys, wait long long..haha)... my schedule is saved up for him... hee~...

hmm...i will find mysf a job related to my diploma...after my trip... have given it much time..it's time i move on...in search for my longing goals... i have rested too long...! it's time i learn the ropes..i cant be doing someting dat dreads me every morn... i juz wish the pay would be good & colleagues are nice... the possibility reason y im stuck in this co .... my colleagues treat me well ( i meant some)... i have nv feel so much friendship bond wif anyone.. i hope i will feel the same way in other co... i will miss them, miss lunching wif them, the craps & 'suaning' ...always console me whenever i get bullied by bozz!.. hehe... and rain too...who is always there for me...~*my memories wif them*~

I m so happy u are coming back!!!

On a sat morning... hooked on net for hours... dun be puzzled... ^_^

In the afternoon..was at orchard wif my shppin kaki, eileen.. hmm..shopp will never get bored wif her ard..she has so many "terms" wif her shopp stuffs...haha...actually we had so much to chat abt, esp our trip to aussie..dats where we would discuss wat to wear there..like goin for fashion parade there..haha!!!..she reli makes me so excited...she's leaving in may...hmm... and making me so excited like im goin during may too....sob..hang in there!! i still got 3 months!!.. hmm... we went searching for velvet boots for our trip..managed to fancy the similar pair... great similar taste! however, we were tinking prob the other stores have nicer ones..although we oredi found one gd pair dat costs a decent price!...haiz, we are always so fickle-minded...after we patrol the other shoes shops, we still decided to go back to the previous one...hmm...and to the sales lady's dismay, we did not get after tryin the second time!!! blacklisted tis time!!haha... im still not sure if i wana get a pair..esp sg's weather so hot!..i tink betta brin my ah lao to see and gif me some comments...hmm...i hope the auntie wont rem me...so jialat!...

Nothing could describe how im feeling now..im so excited!!! at first it's becoz of the trip..but now it's becoz of his return.... so many things i wana do wif him....sentosa for a sun tan, ECP for cycling, kayaking, even a stroll.. bring him to eat gd food dat he miss out the few weeks...yes!! and movies!! we havent been to one yet!! i wana watch "hitch"...! nobodi to watch wif me here....so ke lian.... so dear, rem hor!!! hee~ cya soon...

He's coming back!!!!

YES!!!! he's coming...he's coming......coming to my arms again!!!!!

Dear, im waiting for u...... :P~

it's so sweet to do someting for a guy u loved

it's so sweet to do someting for a guy u loved...knowing dat tis will ease his workload... im juz as happy to help u as much as i can... nod nod...

Hopefully, we can mit soon... juz two weeks more...and i wondered how my reaction would be when i see u at the airport, grinning & waving at me?...This would be the greatest wish come true... even for a short while of spendin another 1 week plus wif u, im oredi contented.. TO hug u in my arms again & whispered "i love u" again....~ juz hope ur aunt agrees..!!!! hee.....

Hmm...then i gotta start plannin my annual leave lohx.... :P

I gotta make ur trip a fruitful one...~

Forever love...forever love.....this song is soo nice...

Hmm..have been slaggin at wk abit lately juz to tink abt my holiday....and U!!!!!

Got tis from my sis....hmm..it's meaningful...

"Love her for who she is. Don't even think about changing any bit about her. 6 billion people in this world & 6 billion different personalities. She's special & she will stay that way. If you change any part of her, you'll change her forever."

"Don't substitute her for anyone else; they are just unique in their own ways."

"Don't expect perfection from her. She's the only one in the world & she's done the best she could ever."

"Never ever walk out of her life. She won't just cry her heart out & carry on living as per normal; she will die. It's her heart that you've broken, how would you ever know how she feels?"

"Winning a girl's heart isn't the final victory. Don't leave her once you've won her love. Love her all the way -till the end of time-. If you can love her till the end of time, you've earned the honor & respect for you've truly love her."

"She chooses you because she believes in you. Win her heart & love her over. Remember, the girl isn't a trophy for display, she's someone to love, not to show off to your "friends". Stay humble yet proud that she's the one for you. Respect her for the way she is, never despise her & never mistreat her, never even think of toying with her"

on a boring sun....

Ytd (sat) was supposed to hook mysf up at work.. wk to clear!!!... but i dun knw y..i was feeling abit weird on my chest... like a heavy load on my chest causing me sleepless nite.... juz dun wana scare my dear... but...im feeling okie now... i hope the feeling wun come again....pray hard...*

So instead, i woke up late...later than the usual time for wk,..hmmm it's 10am, early in the morn... pulled mysf fr bed & on my com...to find mysf chatting the whole morn wif xiao yuan..!!! hee... so much to chat abt...!..after dat, went to mit my cou at far east plaza, had a grab at scotts food court-->my fav beef noodles! started our shopping spree... i bought alot of stuffs at OG..hmm.din expect i would get so many stuffs there....cool....i got a new set of quilt cover, skincare to cure my "incurable" acne dat kips popping up on my chin...sigh.... skirts, pants, undies, storybooks for my nieces and someting for my boi...hee.... can u figure how much i have spend...? nothing could be compared to those days i almost ended up wif no cash home... hee..hee... since i have overspent this week, nx week im cutting down on shopping trips.... hmmm...sounds like a relief...my boi boi will be reading tis..so i got to say someting nicex....hee

hmm...when i got home, was helping mum to organise her impt documents into a folder file... and aso helped her to browse through her policies..too bad..i dun understand a tingy... tink muz arrange for my advisor to come & do us a review... after dat, went out for late supper wif andy lau... at a nearby kopi shop...chatted abt wk....his ex-gf..he always mentioned dat he still cant give up on his ex..i wondered when is he goin to face reality... ?hmmm... i tok to him till im so dried up on my mouth... but nvm, i loved to listen & provide advice..esp similar incident happened to me 2 yrs back.. and.dat's my principle..to help pple...hee... i learnt alot fr pple who shared wif me their probs..coz sometimes it's gd to look fr a diifferent view... when i have my probs, i loved sharing too...but pls, frens dun condemn me to hell.. i ever had close frens whom i shared probs & troubles wif (not to mention who, they knw who they are..coz i have no intentions to contact them aniway) and ended up they bashed me up wif nasty remarks ..and when i told them a new prob again, they juz snap at u and say u deserved it!!!! kaoz... wat are gd frens for?... i tot they ar there to stand by u..? so i learnt a lesson...u are no longer pple i trusted...thanks for showin me ur true colours...hmm im lucky to have these frens ~ Rain, huiling U ARE MY GooD FRENS..!!!.. no matter wat, i will never forsake our friendship....it's u gals who make me a betta person....~ I will never forget pple who have been nice, always there for mi, no matter rain or shine...! thanks!

foto bk ready!

tdy at work, i wasnt reli tokin much..too tired for any conversation... basically i havent had a decent sleep for days..all coz of xiao yuan!!!!... hmm...panda eyes lo.... dun knw if u see me in july, can still recognise me anot...?hehe... im losing sleep... but i couldnt stop mysf from hangin up our conversations... i loved you too much... :P

Start of march

It's MARCH!!!!

How time passes...It's amazing how time flies... And i wondered how long i have to live...? it's not dat im tinkin of the negative side..but it's scary when u juz feel dat ur body is not wking well like before... It juz pull me dwn.... i wondered how it feels like if u have no much time to live... Im oredi 24yrs...In time to come, i have to face the terrible feeling of losing loved ones....pple whom i have not cared much for during the years.. I hope i wun live to regret... i wish i could be like those who earns a few thousand dollars.. bring my family for holidays.... let them retire early... why am i tinking tis way?..it's coz i juz met up wif a fren who's an insurance advisor....

now i realised the importance of savin up..i blamed mysf for my foolish acts in the past... if only i tot of it early, i wouldnt have forced mysf to save bitterly now...at least, i can live comfortably... but watever it is, so long i have taken the first step, it's alreadi a winning battle... There's alot of tings i wish i could do...further my studies... go for holidays..etc... when can i do all these???

Im living in a puppet show..when tings are beyond my control... i can only daydream...like the rest...

study hard dear!!

hmmm~ have been tinkin so much abt my trip..plann far ahead liao..hee~.juz cant wait to be there wif u...haiz... knw u have been having a hard time there...it pains me..pains my heart too...*

I juz cant do much here...wish i could help u in any way....wat u need is encouragement & lotsa patience fr me...~ I hope im able to fulfill all these...~ knw how it feels like to be in a foreign country...i understand it all...i wish i could be there to gif u a warm hugz...~

Study hard dear! will gif u alot of moral support!!