boring sat cum lousy mood~~

Was supposed to catch a movie wif HL & one of my colleagues after wk..matchmake them in a way.. .in the end.. she forsaked me to go out wif her fren..then the guy toa me last min..~ dat's a very bad sign for my wkend..--->

Kinda pissed off by my colleague... always bull shit abt his stuff... like he always help his frens and when i need a helping hand..~ he has alot of excuses..Fine! i cant be bothered w ur stuffs again..im not goin to do u any favours anymore... ~ still can boast to me dat if his frens jio him out..he wun reject...yet he could shot me wif an aeroplane immediately..! i cant understand y he's so thick-skinned.. nv am i goin to have lunch w dat grp again.. always tease me watever sentence i made or say.. im always a joke in their conversations.. can anybodi understand how i feel?.. can they respect me as a fren?.. sometimes i confide to them abt my probs & they could be putting some negative remarks.. thanks, i learnt my lesson..! i rather enjoy my peaceful lunch in my cozy office... from now on..im not goin to gif them any more face...~ i feel like an alien in front of them.. cant they understand my language..? dun they knw humans have feelings?.. they are not my grp of trusted frens anyway..so im not goin to treat them like i owe them anything... ~ they are not those dat i can confide to... ~ i have trusted the wrong pple... at least my closest fens respect me as a fren...they knw my weakness but they dun take advantage of me ~ they thot of my feelings ..~ these are my real frens...

Relations are hard to kip.. when u get to knw the person deeper..u realise some flaws in him/her..vice verse... i cant always be the same bubbly gal who always get bullied & pretend im still happy gett' bullied! or always perfect in everyone's eyes..i dun tink anyone in the world can do it... many frens walked into my life... frens who leave footprints..who bother abt our feelings are true frens... im trying to learn to be a stronger person..someone not to be trifle wif...~ one day i will explode...they betta take cover..hee..~

most of the time, feelings are being neglected ... ~ sometimes we dun even knw we hurt someone.. so i have started to spend time by mysf every nite recently..thinking of how my day has been..have i neglect anyone's feelings tdy etc... at least i knw i can improve the situation & be a betta person tmlo...~ but will they think tis way..?

thurs~ tmlo's friday!

some shitting experience to share:
I tink i ate something terrible wrong....stomach pain..diahorrea... had a bad 'shit' experience on my way hm... when i saw the big "M" signboard..i was so relieved like hell...~ hoo...it's over.... over... thks gdness.. bless me dat i din do it elsewhere.. but in the loo!! hehe...

met up wif a bunch of my fellow, ever bubbly frens for dinner after wk....(dats wat happen to my stomach..!!) took alot of funny, act cute pics... hehe... gossips, "threesome a noisy market" is reli true! i feel like a small gal when im wif them... i feel like im still 21 yrs old.. hee..~seeing my fren gett' over her pain, i felt so relieved.. coz i knw nuts abt consoling.. except i do understand the pain of being dumped...~

Read these:

our past relationships define our needs in our present relationships... We may not be their choice if not for their past, and vice versa. each relationship can re-define our next... until eventually we find our ultimate...

Our past partners made us who we are today...
we being one of the partners our exs had made them wat they are today...

everyone has a past tat makes them who they are today... some may not be proud moments, but those moments, no less, contributes to the person of today.. understand...?? erm..im making mysf confused...~ aniway life still has to go on...~ ultimately u will mit someone new..someone suitable... and this someone will place a special place in ur heart... all these come fr my experiences..we have to let go of the past to be happier...~

Countdown 1, 2, 3...
time is runn' shorter... days gett' faster... heartbeats beat' faster..~ soon.... preparation for the upcoming vacation is gett' me excited...~ frens tease me dat i can be a tai tai over there..hehe...~ does he agree?..

Im always broke at the end of the mth..~ kaoz...my cheapest meal wld be porridge or chicken rice $2.00 on the last wk of the mth...~ gosh..where did my $ gone?

L O V E mE

Absence makes the heart grows fonder.. i believe it's true..~

"lots of tings are never easy in life...needs lots of effort to sustain and maintain..once this element is in, it should be easier... " got this quote fr a fren who posts in my forum...

In a healthy relationship, both parties should not be measuring how much love or pampering they are receive. Instead, they should be learning how to stay fulfilled together.

When one start comparing and saying he love her more or she love him more. It serves little purpose and isn't constructive at all... This is wat love is abt...~ Im mastering the real meaning of true love now...

I (L) Shopping!

I always tink of work work work! WRONG! i always tink of earning $$$!!!

went to twn after my wk to go shopp wif E.. realised im always spendin alot of $ whenever im out wif her..hmm...~ i trust her taste..dats y.. so i manage to get a mystery gift for my man..~ his bdae falls exactly the same day as my sis! hee hee...~ easy to rem!!

I hated the sights of crowds, queues, loud noises...hot weather... here in SG! oh yes..Btw, i saw fann wong tdy..she's so slimy & so elegant! her skin is flawless too! gals muz be jealous of her qualities..

im very excited.. it's gett' nearer! i mean my period.. wat were u tinking? haha~

topic of the week~

Blogging time!!!

Im gett' more conscious abt my diet..im opting for a healthier meal now..not too much oily food, cold drinks etc.. I hope i have the determination to withstand all these temptations.. hmm...~

Im contented wif my life..im an easily contented person. my life is completed. i got a nice bf, i got big dreams dat i believe one day will fulfill.. i juz have to stop my spending habits..hee~

Topic of the day > friday the 13th!!!

I juz cant stop botherin why there's pple who are so free to gossip & spread rumors behind pple's backs..i mean, it's alrite to gossip a little but plss dun overdo it! One of my new colleague ka na complained by my senior colleague.. tink coz she's learning too slow.. not payin much attention..no interest in learnin...etc.. and my supervisor did tok to her to find out her side of story.. the prob i hated abt my senior's way of handling is, since she wana complain to my supervisor, why does she go ard letting the whole world knw aso?..isnt it putting the poor gal in a difficult & awkard position in future..?

Our failure in the office: there's no motivation in our wk environment... still rem her first few wks, did try to chat wif her..make her feel comfortable wif us...but not everyone in the office bothered to do dat... till now, she has been here awhile & nothing changed much betw their relations.. i believe a little gestures mean a thousand words..even offerin biscuits to new colleagues..i always believe tiny actions will score big..

1 yr ago, my life was like hers too...everywhere seems new to me..luckily i got rain to a/c me out for lunch... no one in my office offered to bring me out.. there's rarely friendly "hello, gd morn".. i have to initialed it.. sometimes the guys wld crack funny jokes to break the ice... it's only abt 2 mths dat i started to be on gd terms wif a few colleagues.. I hope im not wrong abt the pple nice to me in the office...

everyone has flaws..no one is perfect.. some pple juz tink dat they are too great.. some even knw it & yet they could pick on others~ before gossiping abt others.. pls look at urselves in the mirror if u belong to dat category too.. stop pretending as through u are invincible..

It's time to do something abt it.. everyone shd play a small part to make the co a satisfying environment for wk..

~world peace but office injustice~

hmm..havent spoken to my supervisor abt it yet..not the rite time tdy after so much had happened...

wed

It's only wed & im oredi in my wkend mood...~

I had plenty stuff to clear before the deadine is near...& so there i was, struggling my 2 hrs in my office...Nah.. my colleagues left ard 7pm. Dat leaves me...alone for 1 hr... I din knw i could paz it through.. thot prob i might leave earlier..but who cares?.. i got my beloved songs in my discman (by my man) & repeated prayers left me certain i could make it through..! And i did...~woo.. it's a scary sight to be seen alone in a BIG office & wat u heard is only the air-con sound..~ it still gimme the peeps.. (^_^; ) My courage has finally built up...~

Fri is the day...im goin to sound my supervisor out..~ hope he could tahan...wif-out me...hee~ mayb he might be panicking how to survive the one mth...~

I could forsee a few obstacles in the later part of the year...Many predict it's not a gd year for rooster..I hope i can pull it through...~ I hope he does too...

It seems like my health is detoriating or am i imagining things again? .. I need a breather...

I juz got "house of wax"..who is goin to watch wif me?

Monday blue

Monday blues again....

Im plann to wk lots of ots since im only left wif two more mths to slog hard & earn more...~ so i can save up...

Im not sure where i will b heading ..but im definitely holding on to u for the rest of my lifetime...~ tinking abt our future together..making our love nest...~

Walking home.... tinking how wonderful it would be where u will be waiting for me after my wk...~ it juz sounds so perfect...~All tis makes me going....~ i feel so alive again...

love!!

There are so many wonderful things i wana do wif u....~ i thot abt it the whole day in the office & cant stop smiling.. ^_,^

lousy mood~

Damn lousy mood.. Dar pissed~ im always a victim of sabotage by pple... Currently i have been labelled of watching too many PORN.. by my colleagues!!! And guez wat?... somebody left a vcd on my desk after i left my office..(to see doc) and my manager saw it lying there.. On my desk some more...It does not belong to me..!!! my colleague sms me when i was abt to have my wonderful nap at hm ..the prob is, i dun knw if it's one of her crap jokes or true facts.. OMG!!!..and if it's reli someone who left it on my desk, wat will my manager think? can i juz bang mysf against the wall?..this is enough.. i tink it's cruel....tml i will find out the truth who's the mastermind... and im gonna scream my head off at dat person...~ believe or not, i have lose my cool...no more the timid & defenceless gal..~ cant i juz have a little peace at hm?... Arugh.......FxxK....!!!! I juz cant stop brooding...*

Hmm..dearie...u muz help fight them off!!!

These reminded me of those days i always get bullied by boys in sch...~ called me names.. i still rem who those boys were...~ their words were hurting..dat i felt inferior most times~ always hopin for a big bro so they wld fend off those boys..~ i will never let history repeats itsf again... I want justice!

shoppin spree

~My shoppin spree wif rain~

Ytd.... from far east to paragon, then to Orchard pt..finally Bugis... Wah... there's sale everywhere! bought alot... had a fruitful trip...~ hehe~ hmm..the sales assistants i met were all friendly & helpful..~ another tactic to lure us to buy?.. well...~ we were at bugis till closing time...~ until all shops are closed...till there's not a man in sight..

My legs ache...my hands tired..carrying so many bags...~ Aww..augh..~