Never say die!

Never say die! Never say old!

Im plann to study HR nx yr.. by hook or by crook... it's nv enough to kip upgrading mysf.. dependin on my budget too... can someone sponsor me..?? *blink blink*

It takes abt 2 yrs+ to get a cerf & diploma in dat area.. i only have mysf to blame for not studyin hard in the past..!

Now the hard way is to save & spend wisely... :)

wat is life all about?

Wat is life all about..?

Is life all about earning and earning $$$..?
Is life all about working late wee hours and then return hm juz to slp and carry on the nx day?
Is life all about work and no lively life..?

Im those who believe in striking a balance betw earning $ and having time with family... I cant stand a job who wants me to be entirely devoted to my job.. dat means sacrificing my time w family. But seeing my family wking hard, im so heart-broken... and there i was, stooding there... unable to offer a pitch of help.. i wish i could help somehow... my current tinkin is to take up a shipping course nx yr.. juz to enrich mysf further and go into shipping line as my career advancement.. perhaps by then i will have the $ to study... i need to find a stable income to go thr tis... And one more tingy, cutting dwn on clothes & ex food are my first priorities now.. im seldom seen hangin at orchard Rd.. usually juz go nearby to have dinner w frens.. dats all... even when spendin $, i tink twice.. i have changed.. do I?

Hmmm... I do not have many close frens..those frens i reli treasure are those whom i have knwn uncountable yrs... those who i knw i can rely on for consolling, advices and help.. can say im a helpless person who cant make even a simplest decision.. pple who knw me will agree... now, i dread telling anyone my probs... coz as i had mentioned before in my blog before.. a fren used to "arrow" me after i told him my stuffs... i have nv ever imagine of condemning a person at all esp when he/she is confiding to me! In fact, im so hapie they share w me, dat shows how impt i am to them.. how attentive a person i can be.. how my encouraging words can be so fulfilling... i want to carry on like tis... im still the same wendy.. someone who is still as blur & indecisive as usual.. Mayb blunt at times too... dat's me.. if u tink i cant be a gd fren, then i have nothing much to explain further...

:: Todae : 02 . 09 . 05 : Saturday ::

Went bowling wif huiling & her fren at BPP.. realised long time nv carry heavy weight le.. hehe.. my nails were long so i cut them pitifully at the bowling alley... we played 2 rounds.. i got at least a strike in each round but dat was juz purely by luck.. im a lousy striker.. most balls end up to the drain.. heehee... still rem my sec days where we used to hang out at bowling & arcade centres.. so fun.. i had an enjoyable time tdy.. fun dat made me missed my young days.. those were the days...

Beautiful soul

whenever u are,
i juz knew when i saw u,
u had open the door
You make me love again
after a long long while..
... in love again...

You say hallo and i turn to gold..
something in ur eyes left my heart beating fast
i juz knw u made me love again
after a long long while...

it was destiny's game, for when love finally came on.
Everything i hope for, u cross my mind.
wherever u are, u will always be on my mind.

Beautiful boy, i search on for u...
And im glad it's u.

wondering..

+ A LOVE Delication +

After all the unhappiness.. im glad u are still here wif me... creating smiles. You are the only who know me well enough.. when to cheer me up.. when to say " i love u"...

After a hard day's work, the only one i would not forget is how u have been as a gd bf... we have been separated for so many mths le.. Ur absence makes me lonely at times when i need u to be here to hear my downs but im contented dat everytime u will squeeze some of ur previous time to kal me.. It's enough to make my day! our love is still v strong. i treasure u alot. The waiting makes me more sure dat u are the one. You give me the strength to live happily. I guez no one can feel how much u meant to me but dats not impt. To me, you are my best fren, my bf and my future hubby..

Im looking forward to seeing u again in Nov... ~ Ur return is a blessing... One less mth of waiting!

You are goin to be e one & only person i trust with my ^ups & downs_ ...
Every word is true from my heartz...muacks!

Sat

Ytd, i went w family to Ding TAi Feng for dim sum at Paragon(to celebrate bro's 15th bdae) .. i couldnt agree they are really spendid or the best.. but still it's nice la. i recalled i ever went to Hong Xin (tiong bahu) where i rem i cant stop but helped mysf to the dim sum.. hehe... it was a pretti long queue though but it's worth it!... i tink im goin to bring my family there if there's a chance.. it's not to be missed! (pics will be upld soon...)

Next, after sendin family to the taxi stand, i walked over to wisma. saw plenty of nice clothes & i did control my urges.. then took mrt dwn to mit M at MS where we then took 240 to clark Q to mit some other frens. we went to a club called gomethan Penthse.. did i spell it correctly? it's our first time there so we kinda looked excited... the place was well-decorated.. v spacious. v impressive. v cozy. the music was great.. R & B are our hot favourites! The main reason was there were sofa seatings. and i reli need some rest after shaking my hip continuously at e dance floor. I left at 3am, much to e exhaustion of my whole body parts. e pain fr the heels is jumpin on my feet too. the nite was great, with good music, with my same old dance partners... I guessed tis is gonna be the an enjoyable nite b4 i start on my new job...

went to catch "the maid" wif Ling & Andy tdy.. i seldom support local films... but tis one, i definitely cant missed it!.. it's scary.. luckily i got my shawl to cover my eyes when some scenes became too gross for me! funny part was, i saw the pic of the maid in the loo... i knw it's bound to happen & was prepared to witness "a human portrait" since e email was forwarded to me quite some time ago. in fact i dread the idea of goin in the loo durin off-peaks hrs.. where left alone were a lady & me.. cool... after goin to dat particular loo 2nd time, i guess the fear is over. so is the show.

nite nite. prepare for battle tmlo.

Fighting spirit!!!

yee.. pee... I got the job offer finally! after waiting for 2 wks... I almost lost hope coz of ytd interview.. sucky..well, my new revolution coming!

Im now so bored in the office dat i decided i shd waste my last 15mins bloggin tis out before i leave office.. tml will be my last day here.. i will reli miss this clean & pampered environment.. nice colleagues too! Im sad to leave.. it's rare to wk in BIG companies who have all these nicex facilities.. cool... well, it's a great experience to wk in a big co for even a short period... Ohh.. I tink i get my pay check nx week.. kekeke.. then can go hunt for mei mei clothes liao...!

Oh.. juz realised my blog is totally out of control at IE... paragraphs every where.. Oops! U can only view it nicely only at Mozilla Firefox! now then i realised... somebody pls help to salvage my blog! I was touched when bf asked if i was neglected.. though i din tink dat far.. but i was glad he asked.. tis shows he's a New Age Sensitive guy.. juz wat i need..Ooooi Oooooi....

A moment of....

A moment of reckless....

I was lured to tinking dat i could get a position in Raffles Place.. The place where i would love to belong.. where u see crowds of office pple... in suits.. in great attire... and there i saw..were a big bunch of young men & women.. some even younger than me... the smiles & friendliness.. i guess it's a lie after i was told to take up network marketing.. sounds familiar isnt it? .. i went for their talk (was being forced ok) took 1 hr like dat...Phui..! havin an antique thinkin.. i still find it unbelievable.. there sure are pple who made fortunes out of it... but it's definitely not me.. i knew it... so lets forget it... the deal's off..

Next, i took 1 day off.. (no pay) after being convinced by the job agency dat the employer was SOO eager to mit me up.. though i kip telling her "no la.. place too far!" she repeatly tried to convince me.. as i din wana wasted any chance, finally i agreed.. took a cab down fr queenstown mrt.. and interview was juz less than 15 mins.. i reckon im out... walking out of the building i felt so lost... in fact i realised i had to walk dwn the long pavement dat leads to the bus stop! with the sun glaring, i felt so dehydrated.. i told mysf.. no, tis isnt the one... i knw dat... im a lazy person.. hehe.. i managed to find a bus that dropped by BPP.. cool... took a longy ride while i looked at how many places i could go taking the bus.. it's bus 963 fyi..

Now im at hm shaking legs... tml muz definitely go wk & earn back the $ i spent on transport tdy!!! hehe..

COnclusion:
im not disheartened.. i knw my golden turn is not here yet.. i feel so much happier knwing dat he's supportive as i continue to seek... One thing i knw, i dun get panicked tokin to pple of higher status.. guess i tink it's e part time job dat gimmes courage.. keke.. now i knw dat i shd b picky in some areas..

To the dentist!

Finally plucked my fully-charged courage to the dentist to extract my rotten tooth dat has been clingin on.. it's not as painful as it seems.. its only after extracting it, i got hm, i started to feel a sharp ache in my gums.. Arughh... at least one thing is over.. one more to extract.. phew! from the doc's description, tis could be much worse! the tooth grew inside my gums & one of my teeth has blocked it.. cool... i tink i may need a minor operation..~ well... there goes my hard-saved $$$..

Tml im startin wk le..it's a temp job..nothing special.. i agreed to the job coz i need $$ & i need to kip mysf occupy..hehe..! the agency told me i can quit anytime as long as i gif them notice like 1 day etc, so i can still go for interviews.. how come i always end up w temp or contract jobs? *puzzled*

Bloggin is so popular now!

It seems like most pple hv started to blog alot.. and there has been a gradually increase, a popularity habit by some 'weirdos' to post some funny pics, stories. I loved it when im entertained by them.. cool.. these 'fatty' pple sure have courage.. dun they worry pple either making fun of her body or condemning her opinions? On the other hand, im amused by her courage and pple even adore her pics & becum her fans. *faint* i could never do it my whole life. NEVER!

and i was very free tdy & came upon a bloggin site..
click! click..!

http://sisterfurongjiejie.blogspot.com/

enjoy & laugh out loud...

National Day!!

Happy 40th National Day, Spore!!

I saw some pple wearing red + white at orchard tdy.. is it a love symbol dat they love Spore muchies?? cool...

You are my country... You are my life..

In deep thots...

In deep thots...

In the past, i have always accept things as it was.. i took watever dat has been laid out for me.. I have no opinions of my own.. and agreed w wat others say.. tryin to be amiable, i acted according to orders.. i had a conventional thinking.. dat was me..~

Havin a conversation w my advisor, Alex juz now.. i understand mysf betta.. he has sort of revealed a side of my eagerness to explore my capabilties.. i wondered if i had one in the first place.. im tired of trying.. mb not even feel like tryin.. i told him my worries & mentioned i get panicked easily.. but he did place a deep reflection of mysf wif his powerful reasonings... Y shd i look down on mysf..? if i have look down on mysf wif out tryin.. i have oredi lose half of the battle.. hmmm.. true.. if only i was given a chance to choose..

He suggested working in a events company.. i did tink of it too.. as a design diploma holder, it sounds logical to look into dat area.. but the prob is, how shd i start to kip the ball rollin? i dun knw where to start.. it's tough.. i wish there's someone who can help me.. GOD

I would love to have support fr my kins.. i knw my parents are not goin to accept the fact of doin things insanely.. Alex has given me much hope.. hmmm...it's so cool to speak w pple who are willing to listen & help.. to pull my income up, i shd start plann on a job dat offers me numerous opportunities to climb. actions speak louder than words! i cant rely on my spouse forever.. if im able to climb higher, my spouse wun have a hard life too.. im sorry if i sound like i have been pressuring u much.. tdy our discussions on our future were real. im wking towards OUR goal.


U and me in 3 years time! I cant resist but envy these pics!

incredible?

To: XY

This page is delicated to XY...

So many things we have gone through together as a couple.. witnessed so many of ur dark secrets! (u knw wat they are k..) ok dear.. after tis mth i realised how much u are so impt to me.. cant believe it.. we have been together for 6 mths! time passed in a wink... juz like how it feels like waiting for july to come.. now, im waiting for Nov/dec to arrive... i have so many things i wana do w ya.. cycling, gym, kayaking, swimming.. alot alot more!

To maintain a long distance r/s needs a lot of effort.. wat we are goin through is the stage where we are still in the honeymoon period.. but things may not be dat easy as the r/s stretches longer.. i hope we can wk together & then on an important day of our lives, hand in hand to the aisle..

Lookin at others' wedd photos made me envious.. i wish one day, i can get to wear the beautiful gown.. and standing beside me is... you! Marryin me is definitely not easy.. u have alot of obstacles to pass..*wink* kekeke...

there is not a single day i nvr think of u in my heart....

insomnia Again..

Im currently suffering fr Insomnia...wat have i been tinking so much dat i cant get to slp almost every nite? You knw, she knws, he knws... everyone knws who im tinkin abt all tis while.

Hint: I missed the lil' late nite conversations, the loud & shrilling laughters, the tempting "potatoes + luncheon meat" ..

wat a spendid day i had tdy... scanning through hippy clothes at orchard w a ticklish heart.. included: met up w HL & a mysterious guy fr internt she knew.. then late evening mit lian while HL went to mit her bf.. we had a hearty conversatn.. giggling at our own conversations. ermmhh.

im eyeing some pretty stuffs.. so i cant wait to get a job fast! the thot of goin back to my ex-co runs through me awhile ago.. i dun knw y... mb i tink im sick of goin for interviews or shd i say i have no confidence in mysf? i can still picture mysf goin back to e same old place... the same old pple.. surprisingly, my ex colleagues still rem me, they kal/msg me.. i feel so 'highly' appreciated.. hmm.. i tink im goin to kal my bozz nx wk.. P.S: da sao, dun scold me!

have been bz these few days, mitting frens.. passing them souvenirs.. and i realised i forgt to buy some for my ex colleagues.. those who had treated me good before..

If u have promise to return early.. dun break it.. coz only u have the power to make me more cheerful...


"me & lian"




bedtime now...



dreaming of a betta tmlo...*wink*

time checked: 4 am sharp, i can hear birds singing.. still very awake...wat's next??

searching in progress...

searching in progress... 1,2,3

Tdy is the 2nd day i touched dwn to Sg.. and i oredi have an interview waiting for me tdy.. i spent two hrs plus tryin to convince the manager dat im up to the job...Many questions were voiced out by her & answered brillantly by mi..i hope so.. i was nervous & cold like ice cream.. ~ finally she let me leave after testing my ang mo... sorry to kip da sao waiting & she wasnt even annoyed w me... hee.. pai seh hor...~ it doesnt matter if i get the job coz i still got lots of time to find one gd one! hehe..juz dat i will be bored at hm lo.. frankly speaking, i hated interviews where it seems like im tryin to promote mysf as a useful product.. i hated the greeny eyes of the managers when they mention dat i have no wk experience... arguhhh..

Watever it is, i still maintain a little hope dat they will kal me.. hehe..

It's a brand new start.. im goin to strive... im goin to wk hard.. no more 'fake' mcs for me... kekeke.. dear muz wk hard too.. these 2 days may have been unbearable.. but soon u will get used to it.. will support u all the way... left with 4 mths le.. and soon u will return.. hope everytin wks well for us.. ur results & my job.. Rem, u are my lighter dat lights up my life..wait, dun get the wrong idea.. i dun smoke... ^_^

Parting..but not goodbye forever..

Parting... in 2 countries... again... however..im contented that 1 mth i was there.. indeed..
All i can say..this 1 mth has been overcome by my negative fears in the past.. i reli enjoyed being wif u..yes.. i mean it.. although at times im being treated invisible.. but gett' to knw u more, i knw u have ur routines to clear.. so do I.. e.g my friendster... hee... i love u bites by bites... pls keep our memories in ur heart.. shall wait here for u in 4 mths time.. sayonara!