To: XY

This page is delicated to XY...

So many things we have gone through together as a couple.. witnessed so many of ur dark secrets! (u knw wat they are k..) ok dear.. after tis mth i realised how much u are so impt to me.. cant believe it.. we have been together for 6 mths! time passed in a wink... juz like how it feels like waiting for july to come.. now, im waiting for Nov/dec to arrive... i have so many things i wana do w ya.. cycling, gym, kayaking, swimming.. alot alot more!

To maintain a long distance r/s needs a lot of effort.. wat we are goin through is the stage where we are still in the honeymoon period.. but things may not be dat easy as the r/s stretches longer.. i hope we can wk together & then on an important day of our lives, hand in hand to the aisle..

Lookin at others' wedd photos made me envious.. i wish one day, i can get to wear the beautiful gown.. and standing beside me is... you! Marryin me is definitely not easy.. u have alot of obstacles to pass..*wink* kekeke...

there is not a single day i nvr think of u in my heart....

insomnia Again..

Im currently suffering fr Insomnia...wat have i been tinking so much dat i cant get to slp almost every nite? You knw, she knws, he knws... everyone knws who im tinkin abt all tis while.

Hint: I missed the lil' late nite conversations, the loud & shrilling laughters, the tempting "potatoes + luncheon meat" ..

wat a spendid day i had tdy... scanning through hippy clothes at orchard w a ticklish heart.. included: met up w HL & a mysterious guy fr internt she knew.. then late evening mit lian while HL went to mit her bf.. we had a hearty conversatn.. giggling at our own conversations. ermmhh.

im eyeing some pretty stuffs.. so i cant wait to get a job fast! the thot of goin back to my ex-co runs through me awhile ago.. i dun knw y... mb i tink im sick of goin for interviews or shd i say i have no confidence in mysf? i can still picture mysf goin back to e same old place... the same old pple.. surprisingly, my ex colleagues still rem me, they kal/msg me.. i feel so 'highly' appreciated.. hmm.. i tink im goin to kal my bozz nx wk.. P.S: da sao, dun scold me!

have been bz these few days, mitting frens.. passing them souvenirs.. and i realised i forgt to buy some for my ex colleagues.. those who had treated me good before..

If u have promise to return early.. dun break it.. coz only u have the power to make me more cheerful...


"me & lian"




bedtime now...



dreaming of a betta tmlo...*wink*

time checked: 4 am sharp, i can hear birds singing.. still very awake...wat's next??

searching in progress...

searching in progress... 1,2,3

Tdy is the 2nd day i touched dwn to Sg.. and i oredi have an interview waiting for me tdy.. i spent two hrs plus tryin to convince the manager dat im up to the job...Many questions were voiced out by her & answered brillantly by mi..i hope so.. i was nervous & cold like ice cream.. ~ finally she let me leave after testing my ang mo... sorry to kip da sao waiting & she wasnt even annoyed w me... hee.. pai seh hor...~ it doesnt matter if i get the job coz i still got lots of time to find one gd one! hehe..juz dat i will be bored at hm lo.. frankly speaking, i hated interviews where it seems like im tryin to promote mysf as a useful product.. i hated the greeny eyes of the managers when they mention dat i have no wk experience... arguhhh..

Watever it is, i still maintain a little hope dat they will kal me.. hehe..

It's a brand new start.. im goin to strive... im goin to wk hard.. no more 'fake' mcs for me... kekeke.. dear muz wk hard too.. these 2 days may have been unbearable.. but soon u will get used to it.. will support u all the way... left with 4 mths le.. and soon u will return.. hope everytin wks well for us.. ur results & my job.. Rem, u are my lighter dat lights up my life..wait, dun get the wrong idea.. i dun smoke... ^_^

Parting..but not goodbye forever..

Parting... in 2 countries... again... however..im contented that 1 mth i was there.. indeed..
All i can say..this 1 mth has been overcome by my negative fears in the past.. i reli enjoyed being wif u..yes.. i mean it.. although at times im being treated invisible.. but gett' to knw u more, i knw u have ur routines to clear.. so do I.. e.g my friendster... hee... i love u bites by bites... pls keep our memories in ur heart.. shall wait here for u in 4 mths time.. sayonara!

Our 6 mths Anniversary dinner... cheers!

1st lesson at QUT

My 1st lesson at QUT...

class starts at 10 am.. nv had the feeling of lookin forward to sch for a Very long time..hehe..was delighted to be walkin to sch hand-in-hand wif my bf.. lectures are specially boring..but i kinda stared blurry at the lecturer even though nothing goes in the brain.. cool...( as though i reli understand a shit he's sayin which i dun..)

ytd we managed to spurge out a decent meal for dinner.. 'chao ta' calamari rings, ham, eggs, bacon, egg noodles etc... helped ourselves w a whole lot of icre-cream topped w strawberry toppings & banana split...yummy... dear aso made a kal to his mummy for advice on cookin porridge, fried bee hoon... hmmm... looks like cookin has become our interest.. lol.. im becomin much like a typical housefly..oops..i mean housewife... kekeeke

to date, i bought alot of stuffs...my whole baggage full of beautiful stuffs for my kins, frens, pple.. and not forgetting..mysf.. hmm...Damn gross! i need to highlite... these 2 weeks has been bz stuttling w all the clothes at most shops but all were too large for me!! im so pissed off.. esp those skirts dat cost only 10 bucks.. gahh...

have been lazier than before..slumped up to bed after dinner..and then woke up to have another big scoops of ice-cream.. hmpf.. i hope i din put on weight on my tummy...

BBq on a cold weather!

Imagine the wind blowing while waiting for the chicken wings to be done..! Yes.. we were havin a bbq here..on a cold weather.. no doubt of a weather like tis..cool..we were havin teppanyaki bbq in one of the famous park (south bank).. there's a man-made beach in front of us.. and guess wat..two little duckings swam towards our direction as we were bbq our dinner..cool... how i wish i can bbq them for dinner too.. roasted ducks..hehe.. 11 pple of us.. helpin out w the dinner.. the menu for e nite were: chicken wings, lamp chop, prawns, mushrooms, hotdogs, sweet corn, bananas w melted chocolate, masmallows... wow... sumptous...!

I loved to be surrounded by many pple, giggling w one another jokes, tok cracks (esp fr dearie).. it's so wonderful.. even though i juz knw them not long, they are juz wonderful pple i met here..

Dear has been a 'good' bf... helpin out w lunch, dinner, the clothes... hmm.. i can trust him w the chores in future..hor..? lol..

me at aussie

Im bloggin tis in Aussie finally !!!

A recap of my first wk in aussie:
the first day was a tired day after i arrived in Brisbane as i had juz purely 2 hrs of slp in the plane.. dear brought me walked ard... south bank, crossed the bridge..to the city..got some groceries for our dinner, watched war of the worlds.. the cinema was free seating..and big! we spent the rest of the few days at Gold coast..stayed at sufers motel.. the first day at GC was at pacific fair.. a shoppin town for shopp alcoholics like me! i spent quite alot there though the tops & bottoms were abit...too BIG size for a petite me! woo...

2nd day at GC was at movieworld where u get to see looney tunes characters ..and batman, austin powers, matrix.. watched the police acadamy show tat was trilling & humorous.. and there was tis all stars parade where all characters posed for a gd shoot.. took the batman ride, roller coaster ride, watched the 3D animation.. cool... managed to watch my fav cartoon character: tweety bird!!

The followin day was at dreamworld..it's a world of thrilling rides.. reli scare the wits out of me.. was psycho by bf to sit the ride 'wipeout'! watchin others screamin throughout the ride..goose pimples run through me...but i still managed to tell mysf it's juz a 5mins ride!! ..and i did it!!!i sat twice!! imagined flyin up the sky 360 degrees! i couldnt have done it wif out my bf 's company..
and the terrifyin cyclone coaster ride was far more scary i could imagine! we aso took the gold coast train ard the small forest.. and aso to the Australian wildlife..fed the kangaroos and took some snap shots of the koala bears too..and the farmyard where we saw some familiar animals like pigs, chickens, cow, sheep, goats..

Our last day at GC was at Harbortown..a bigger shopp town as compared to pacific fair.. the things there are mostly on sale..but sad to say..their sizes dun fit me!! bought a few stuffs onli.. bf bought a pair of adidas sneakers & billibong bag.. Now..who's the shoppin queen here..?hmm.. as we were carrying too much stuffs & our baggage.. we decided to come back another day to wipe out the last few stores dat we din get to shop.. and back home was soo nice..

Met up wif some of bf's frens studyin at aussie & catched " bewitched" w them.. loving pple.. we aso had a share of our dinner together in the kitchen where each of us contributed some groceries.. i witnessed a sense of belongin & group effort.. dinner was great.. home cooked dishes by a fren's dad.. i peeled some onions & bf washed some of the dishes..everyone's cooperative.. cool.. we are havin a bbq tml & everyone has chipped in some $ .. went to the market & supermarket together ytd to buy bbq stuffs.. it's such an enjoyable day wif no worries of tml.. except..wat to eat lata.. lol.. i missed mummy's home cooked dishes..

how i wish there's a bowl of laksa, chicken rice, carrot cake in front of me right now!haha... tis past wk has made me a home-oriented woman.. washed the dishes, clothes & prepared dinner.. things i seldom do in SG..!!

COnfession

Introduction of Princess Tan Mui Mui:
There's these few things TRUE abt me dat u gotcha knw:

• emotional like a freak
• Naive
• cant tolerate bad attitude, rude beings
• im a lousy decision -maker
• gets nervous when havin to ponder over difficulties
• not enuf slp will cause Xtreme blur ness, silence & prone to sayin unrelated stuff most of the time.. pardon me!
• do not like taken for granted..
• brood over split milk..all the time
• lazy bum..ZZZzzz
  
• still love to be pamper wif small gifts, kisses, hugz.. pls take note k..

So..if u reli dun mind all these.. u have to accept me... =)

Everyday the world is changin & im always seekin + learning.. hopin i will excel further..

the last few days have caused bits of unhappiness betw us.. but after goin through these tough times, im more excited to knw dat im stronger and not weaker than before.. Do not let our past blindfold us.. the past is a marking for us to learn to handle our r/s.. u have to knw, u are not the only one hangin on.. i am too..

Tml is my last day..any last regrets?..nope.. i juz cant be bothered atittude.. these few days have been a great wk.. reli packed for me.. had genki sushi wif rain & eileen ytd nite, the day before was out wif huilin for dinner & tml i'll be mitting my 'big' bro for dinner! woohoo~ juz 4 more days & im out of SG.. on a plane lookin for my dear!

every sat has become a boring day for mi

every sat has become a boring day for mi.. most of my gd frens a/c bfs.. some i havent contact wif have MIA.. as usual i was at hm..browsin & surfing net... taking a long nap... etc

Tml i wil be watchin Initial D wif eileen..plann to mit early to go bk our tix..! hopefully we can chop the best seats!! haha..our 38's attitude!!

Suddenly crossed my mind dat although his presence may not b wif me but his love is.. i can still lead a carefree life.. juz like being unattached.. i wouldnt mind it at all.. i cant compare my LDRS to other r/s ..

Well, there is no way to define love, but i guess when the gals here talk abt "who loves who more" on a relatively basis, they really mean "who SHOWS and loves who more"... U know, it's quite one thing to talk abt giving without expecting returns, and another to practice it... then again why is it wrong to expect reciprocity? It's a very natural human reaction..

I find it hard to imagine, how can a gal open her heart to love somebody, (running the risk of being vulnerable to hurt in the process), and yet not take it to heart when this loved one doesn't show his love? I mean, he may show that he wants u or cares for u, but that's not the same as showing he NEEDS u... and when u realise u actually need this man, it's very very natural for feelings of insecurity, and all that "i think he doesn't love me as much as i love him" kind of set in....well, i knws he loves me.. and I guess deep in him, he does care, but juz his male nature that makes him incapable of expression..
To me, a foundation has always been impt in a r/s..wif out it, wat could be carry on..

have i been over -react?

My gd fren has juz return fr aussie last wk..and she had shared wif me her experiences durin her stay at mel & Gold coast... her trip seems interesting..i hope mine will be too.. she bought a cutie sling bag for me... tink i will get her something nice too..since she lent me her luggage bag & clothes..so nice of her... I tink i will forget abt the trip to sydney if it's goin to cost too much... coz i rather be spending $ on 'visible' goods.. than be troubled over my cash flow...
Have i been over-reacting? i realised im not at all perfect..although i have tell mysf to be more understanding... there's still something bugging me...

Ohh.. now dat i juz pack all the neccessary things in my luggage..i have been ponderin if i can carry it back to SG since im comin back on a wkday..who can come & fetch me up & pick up my luggage... cool... i tink im in dead shit...

"i believe that girlfriends are to be pampered n cherished.. and while u're being pampered and cherished..u'll know that u've finally found THE ONE."
"when u are loved and accepted by someone who love u as u are, u will eventually love him too."
"while it's a blessing 2 be loved, it's even better when both parties are in love with each other"
"there's no perfect guy or gal in a r/s. Make the best of what you find in your other half."

Very meaningful quotes.....

Jia you!

Jia you! jia you!!! bf....i have confidence in u!!

Raining cats & dogs^^....I was dying hard tinkin who can i ask for help to share their umbrella wif me... and i thot of rain..i was pinnin my last hopes on her..but too bad she was not nearby yet... ~and then things get complicated as i blindly follow a colleague ( i met at the bus-stop..neither of us had umbrellas..) to see a doc before headin wk.. ME AGAIN to the doc's?? hmmm...she's in a pretty bad shape.. well, i had my cramps so i thot mayb i shd see a doc too...so we had our morn spent drinkin kopi & teh..then waited for our turn at the clinic.. wat a pal rain has been..even though she juz recover fr her illness..she still brought umbrellas for us..~ so touched... wat a good da sao she has been... fellows, pls learn fr her...hebe...~
Conclusion: The power of friendship...~ hehe...

Pretty upset dat i din knw my mum has taken a day off for her check-up until i happen to kal her office.. i wish i could be there at least..even to one of her check-ups.. she was here when i was sick..preparin tonic, squeeze orange juice for me...but i was not there even for her routine check-up...not even one..!
Conclusion:brainstorm me !!!

Ytd had a long 3 hrs conversation w my bf.... coolx...we sure had alot to tok...~ and cant bear to hang up even when the clock ticks 1am... but no choice..~tmlo has to wk wor... nvm..we can still chat in july..even if it means losing sleep..tata!
Conclusion: we are hopeless...so in love...crazy in love..

Home alone

~~ home alone~~

cool.. nobody can spy wat i am act doin..im in fact doin... nothing..reli...~~"smirk"
haix..i slpt till 11 am then continue slpin again..due to the drowsy medication by the doc.. im feelin all groggy & lamely..
It's been 3 days since i last stepped into my dreary office... coolx!
Wat i have been doin behind the scenes...
snorting my shit out of my nose..terrible flu is gett' my way of breathin... not forgett' my teary eyes... :(
bitter sore throat..gargle my watery, bitter medicine.. wat i eat has become tastleless...sigh..
hopefully, by tml i can recover & brave my last 3 wks in dat damn creepy office...

It's juz 3 weeks more...! kaoz..i have oredi packed some of my stuffs in my luggage..still pendin for E's bag she's lendin....then im set to finish packing..hmmm..so many stuffs to brin ther...~

My bf suggested we make a trip to sydney..i nodded excitedly.. but then again.. i cant be dwn for the SG sale..~and it's worth it... he highlite dat we haven try *smoochin* on air...hehe..i add dat last line...~ cool...i love to be on air wif him....still rem when both of us took the ride at escape... he said some xXx lines in the air...hoow...! The culprit ->i was the one who suggested it....*sneaky smile*

hope i wun fall sick in aussie..i's juz plain cruel to me & him...

Im readin the recipe now & tryin to absorb as much info as i could to whip up a gd meal for him...im left wif 2 wkends to struggle aimlessly...who would like to be my guinea pig first??

"i pledge to love u all my life...and will never forsake u in the midst of any misfortune"

mc queen!!!

mc queen!!! i have to admit im one... im plann taking 3 days mc tis mth...shh.....clear mc..haha..

I juz cant wk but tinkin abt my trip..im gg sn..yes!!! 3 wks time, i'll be indulgin in the cooling breeze of aussie air...the oceans, the shopp, the love....~~ paradise..dat's wat i kal it... Im feeling blessed... ~ gotta miss my family, mum's cooking, frens' company heaps...

im truely glad i have endure the hardship of loneliness for 5 mths...!!! it's so great... up to date, we have been clingin on to tis LDR for 5 mths... cool.... the first battle is over.....! we have won....

Hmm..im not on gd terms w some of my colleagues..the only pple i have bear grudges on are those malaysians/PR... i dun care a damn abt them anymore.. since it's my last mth, i will juz create havoc.... i bite..i hate..i curse..so dun try it..!(except my bf..hehe..)

countdwn:28 days

countdwn:28 days+*+*+*

Things i did tdy:
work+work+work= $
look at his pics & msgs
giggle secretly at his mushy msgs
watched Madagascar ( rated V.gd!)
shopp: bought 2 tops + a skirt

Things dat happen to me the past few days:
spoken to boss abt my trip
pc down for 3 days!(damn)
final decision to my boss (relieved)
went to surf net at arcade/Lan shop
to chat w bf for an hr
cpu sent to office for my IT specialist to fix
pc working, more powerful!!!
Thanks to Rain's beauty skills..

Im on cloud 9......(^_^)
so many great things happen to me