Monday, September 18, 2006

Depressing mode...

Lazy Bum on the run.. Thats mi!!!!

amazingly,my 2nd training still cont'd tis week... looks like my determination is starting to build up bit by bit. applause!

This weekend has been feeling kinda swallow. i feel like i dun knw wat i was doing, where i was heading.. i only knw my brain & eyes badly needs a good rest. my life is so wacky! one moment i behaved like an athlete, the other moment im like a zombie walking dwn the street.. seems like there's so many versions of mi.. Seriously in the past, I wanted to do many things, wanted to be ambitious.. independent.. but i knw i cant. i am weak. i lack of spirit. Finally tdy, i learnt someting: health is more golden than $$$.. so dun work so hard. dun over-exert.. if i can choose, i rather choose good health over good life wif all the 'junk' food... Bf is constantly falling sick.. reli worry for him. now i feel terrible when someone so dearly has been suffering... pls take away all these terrible feelings... (-_-") i need to tell myself to be strong.. so i can protect him...

Something cross my mind. i should stop spending $$$$$... i knw i have been repeating this line almost all the while.. But now, i reli feel there's a need to control all my expenditure. i cant seem to see my $$$ flowing in my bank account! Lets juz say dat i have reached a stage where i start to get worry abt my future expenditures...~ is wat pple kal L!fe? Happ!ness?.... this is a depressing entry.. i better stop here...~ im not used to writing such stuffs...

~ end of my depressed chapter ~

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