I miss ya!!!

hmm..juz hung up wif lobster... we spoken for almost 4 hrs.. luckily,we are chatting using video conference through a free website...hee~ if not, the fone bill is goin to cost us a big bomb... and i have to wk alot of ots to atone for it... he's so smart....my smartie boi... : )~

hee~ dear, i understand ur worries...Im pretty concerned too...but watever it is,we gotta be frank wif each other..may it be thoughts, emotions, watever.. i promise i will be patient & understanding...coz i do not want anytink to affect ur studies...trust me..trust us...I hope everytink will be planned & wk out.... hee~ so excited abt my trip in july.... I gonna to cherish the days im there.... it's a gd chance to take a long break too....all the hustle...the fast pace of wking life... I wana dump them all & pamper myself for good....before i plan my way out.. wat i want in my career... Im looking forwad to it...~ I miss ya...dear!

Anniversary!!!!

Happy 1 mth anniversay DEAR!!!!!! I miss ya!!!!!

"The reason".... by Hoobastank...*
Im not a perfect person...
there are many things I wish I didnt do...
But I continue learning...
I never meant to do those things to you...
And so I have to say before I go...
That I juz want you to know...

I've found a reason for me...
To change who I used to be...
A reason to start over new...
And the reason is you....

Loved this song soo much....! Juz bought it....Have aimed this song for quite awhile...haha!

memories - 18th feb 05

On a cozy nite...*

it's becoming a habit dat every morn & every nite, i would on my pc and then looked at all our fotos we had taken.. it's becoming so much like taking breakfast & supper b4 and after sleep..hmmm...i would spend hours juz glazing at them & smilied at myself for having these sweet memories captured on pics... i have never taken so many pics wif anyone my whole entire life!.. I guez anyone who's reading my blog rite now can feel dat im the happiest woman on earth...indeed i am..i have never feel so much like now in the past...~ ..im confident enough to say im loving u more & more as each day paz... it juz feels so good juz sitting in my rm looking at our fotos... Still rem, i used to stay out late at nite...goin shopp..clubbing etc... but now it seems u have utterly changed me...and it's definitely a gd ting...my mum said so..hee~ .. less $ is spent & more time at hm... *pat pat*

I'm creating this blog to share wif everyone my happiness..i loved sharing...i love to boast..i love romance..i love to be loved.. i love to be respected.. i hope no one is trying to abuse it...~

i knw my frens are hapie for me dat i have found him... no doubt dat i have a few failed r/s in the past... but wat lies now is the future... frens, if u are reading..hope u are blessed wif love rite now....treasure ur loved ones....~

I dun mind spending everyday....~out on your corner in the pouring rain...look for the "guy" wif the broken smile.. ask "him" if "he" wants to stay awhile...and "he" will be loved... "he" will be loved... "he" will be loved....Oooh.... i juz loved this song... listening to it now..kept repeating it.... " he will be loved" by oink oink...*bleah*

on the 2nd day

On the 2nd day ..wif-out him...

This morn i was surprised to receive his kal..thank goodness i did not miss it!..chatted for a short while & hang up when my colleague came up to look for me.. it's yet another boring day for mi at wk...sob sob..

went to mac after wk wif rain...went for a bite and gossip!..we stayed for abt 2 hrs..chatting abt those days we went for double dates..how he & me got together.. and other stuffs..hee~

Oops..i tink my pc has caught a deadly virus..i cant seem to access my friendster & email..not even msn.. oh..why is tis happenin to me at the wrong time...? im so scared... wori dat i cant chat wif u online by the time u got ur internet a/c... if only u were here...im sure u could do someting abt it... i knw ur capabilities.. now i can only pray and pray dat everytink will be okie...i can only hope for a miracle..

is god playing a joke on us...? i wondered sometimes... it's juz the 2nd day and tis has happened...

someting's bothering me... it's abt my dad... as everyone shd knw, the Toto's prize has gone up...of coz everyone's buying... even me..i told myself..the first ting when i knw i strike lottery, im goin to resign & book a tix to aussie..haha..fat hope!.. so when i got hm, i was so excited (even though i knw i din win in the end) dat i told my mum i bought $2 Toto ($2.00!!!)..and asked if she won any... (she's got luck).. my dad overheard our conversatn & then said things like "i dun like my daughters to buy Toto & 4D..i dun want them to be addicted.." my mum then explained dat i only buy abit...actually, i was stunned..i mean they invest alot...but i dun...i only buy when the prize is attractive & i dun see anytink wrong wif it..im juz buying it for fun since everyone's buying!!! haiz...tis is not the first time i was bein lectured by him... oh well...the worst part was..my sis got hm..and juz like me, she's excited abt the Toto thing...told my parents proudly dat she invested abt $20..but din win lo... my dad did not say a word...~ erm...wat to say...? it's not a gd ting to be the eldest sibling after all...

Im wking hard on our foto book~.. i hope u will find it nice...coz i dun.. :(

the lst day wif-out u...

Tdy is the start of the 1st day..wif-out him... ~

Ytd after wk, went wif da sao to get some stuff for him..like lip balm & body moisturizer & a small farewell gift... my heart beated fast when i got in the train..i still cant believe tdy's the day!.. well, was trying to force into a smile.. dat's all im saying... :(

Tdy...
he kal me fr aussie in the early morn..my mind suddenly became so conscious upon hearing his voice.. seems so near & yet distant away..haiz, I was bz at work as usual...went through lots of docs... docs.. docs.. i hated it..damn.. i couldnt even paused for a fresh breath.. my stupid boz was so ya-ya...adding some nasty stuff to my mood & then said he will attach a few pple to me..so i shd be able to finish it by fri...& demanded dat i gotta stay back for the nx few days.. wat the heck!..i mean i will do it but i dun need him to command me!.. i got brains, mind him.. i felt like cursing him.. i swear i will do it if im tons angry~ he's gett' on my nerves!.. hmm.. keep cool...well, i won victory by teasing him back... dat he's numb in his knees...whoop!.. YES! yes!.. i saw a sly grin on my face... haha..

the journey back hm...was kinda dozing off...dat i nearly missed my stop.. and then dragged mysf hm..the first to come to my mind is to log on & view our pics..gosh..my pc is gett' slower.. i forsee sometink coming up..sometink not good...i wori abt our only communicatn.. i wondered...if my pc can withstand till june..pls??..
I hope u are able to adapt there soon...*hugz*

waiting...

Waiting for.....

the nite has reached..the day has come..In 20hrs time, i wun be able to feel u...suddenly im at a loss for words when we were walking back to my flat.. I told myself dat no matter wat, the memories u had given me are more than enuf to keep me tinking abt u... I shd be happy... but tears kept rolling down once i got hm dat im speechless now...i do not knw wat i shd msg u now...shd i act as though im so excited dat u ar leaving...?
i told myself once i shut my eyes, the day will be here faster..silly of me... dun tell me im staying up the whole nite..?..no i cant..u cant possibly want a black eyed piggy...hmm... cheer up... cheer up....mann..come on...

*happiness* :it's not the end of the world...he will return 4 mths lata... u can have ur free time to do ur stuffs..while missing him...~

*saddness* : but it's not easy..based on a weak point of me...i juz cant do it...

* happiness* : but brace up...u still can see him on web cam!...at least someting..betta than noting to c..hor?

*sadness* : hmmm.... i gotta thank the inventor for creating this ideal pc of technology..wif out it, i tink i will die...haha... i still can see u on screen!..hmmm...maybe tis will make me feel betta...

*sadness* turns to *happiness* and smiled : I have his memories stored in my hard disk... it's pretty full...~

Valentine's day 14-01-05

A Valentine's Day romantic story....

13th - 14th feb 05

On a special day of 2005, two little animals headed down to "Amara" .. They took a lift to the 12th fl... when they rch the door, they tried to force open the door but to no vain...and worst, they heard noises inside ..they tot ears were playing a joke on them..well, they tried again when suddenly, a lady opened the door wif her hair tied up wif a towel...oh watever...~ they tot, who would be so cruel to play a joke like tis....it's a tiny misunderstanding aniway... so they went down to the reception again and requested again...it was in fact the staff's mistake... not theirs..phew!.. to the lady: we are so sorry for disturbing you....from; the animals!

Lobster had given 12 stalks of sweet roses (red and pink) to piggy, a webcam (so they can see each other online) and a set of 'me to you' bears she has always been collecting... bingo!.. and Piggy had bought a haversack meant for his laptop and a set of towels.. lastly, she aso got him a heart-shaped ice-cream cake fr swensens...! delicious!..it was spendid time except the stomache moments... God has been cruel to them.... They were both landed wif a bad stomach pain...muz be somtink they ate the previous nite... ~ hmmm, who ask piggy so greedy and hungry...erm..i tink dat's me...

Although piggy has longed for valentine's day to come so she could present him wif the surprise...she was sad when nitetime has become morn...as the sky gets brighter, the dark clouds vanish, noises become clearer.. busy roads..the day was over... tmlo will be the day they will have to face each other and say good-bye at the airport... Piggy was juz as happy dat tis is her 1st biggest cum romantic valentine's present she has celebrated wif... ~ : )

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in the late evening of 14th feb, the foursome (rain, des, lobster & piggy) went to sentosa to take some more pics...the scenery was pretty attractive... they aso went to the musical fountain to watch the laser show...hmm..piggy's third time there... but tis time it's wif someone she loved so much!!! They aso took the monorail round the whole island... it's been ages since she took one!...

The long journey back home was like a torture..dun knw if piggy shd smile or moan... the air betw piggy & lobster was tense & heavy.. piggy was breathing hard & was taking every chance not to cry as every step they took got to her home... she does not want to wori lobster... but she knw she will fail tmlo...

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To: lobster

We got together on 22th, still rem the moment u asked me to be ur gf...hee~ it was on a spendid hot evening during a ride at Escape..above the blue sky!..hope u ar not forced to sit the ride hor! our get-together was "fast & furious" yet it was sometink i will always kip to my heart..

I believe fate has brought us to mit and gotta thank da sao (a million times) for bringing us to a closer point.. the day when we saw & spoken to each other during "herbal life" and then our fairytale started.. hee~

Although the days being wif u were short, but im reli happy dat u have made me experience everytink dat i always dream of.... U, from such a short period, makes me so much in love wif u..wonder if u add anytink to my drinks hor..?

I may be sad dat u ar leaving aussie, but u will always be in my heart, life and soul.. the days u were not wif me, i will wait patiently for ur boat to rch the shore... rem the harbour name is" Oink oink harbour" I hope everytink will go as planned..dat me, da sao, da ge will fly over to aussie in dec... i will save up every bit of my $ to fulfill it... coz i want everytink betw us to come true... i prayed hard~...

love,
oink oink

CNY 2005

CNY day 1
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--> woke up on a late morning..
--> doll myself in the prettiest state..
--> went over to big aunt's place to collect ang baos...cool!
--> everyone was kinda praising me dat im gett' much.... hee~ *wink*
--> mit rain to XY's ah ma 's hse
--> first time saw his family, pretty excited..hee...*nice family*

CNY day 2
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--> woke up on an excited mode..
--> dressed up neatly, headed down to XY' s hse
--> hmmm...finally took a look at his hse....* muz help him tidy up..* heehee...
--> after dat, went over to aunt's place at marsiling..
--> mit up w my cousins and played poker w them...no win, no lose....!

CNY day 3
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--> woke up in the middle of the nite w stomach pains..sob..sob..
--> vomitted twice..! gosh..wat did i eat last nite??
--> visited a doc and rested the whole day at home..so bored and sian sia...*
--> was supposed to mit XY to go cycling & kayaking...
--> Y did i fall sick on such a day planned out..?? damn!!!

My surprise~*

hee...so dear~"u knw wat valentine's day surprise i had for u...and Im glad u tink it's nice.However, dun wori, i will top up wif a gift aso...sumtink i wana choose myself for u..based from my heart..~.. For ur sake Im goin to learn more and make more surprises for u...hehe...For those who ar curious abt the "surprise".. it's actually cheesecake baked specially for my dear by myself (alone, wif-out guidance fr my sis) this time, my own efforts and delicated time...hee. and it goes a long way too~ ..The first baking was unsuccessful....and worst, i spilled butter all over my body...hee~ clumsy of me sia... so the next day i bought the ingredients again to make a second one...Tis time..i proved myself wrong...I can be a genius too..haha...learnt from previous day experiences.. ~ I waited, waited...and waited...finally the cake is ready ..I smiled to myself...*grin*

making sometink for a loved one is a special feeling...juz like how he would react when he has his first bite...so sweet....~ I cant stop smiling when he's taking every bite of my love...*

Dear, i hope u can feel how much I loved u....~ :p

Notink matters as long as im holding ur hand...I juz feel so comfortable whenever i see u...U ar the only one who can make me smile brightly...~ :-) u made my life so sunny....::::::*:::::::: We still have 1 week plus to be together...before u fly off...Days ar short but moments ar memorable...to mi, it seems like we hav been together for a long time...

To be in luv wif the rite guy is soo wonderful..~

hmmm...juz return from our buffet dinner at park view hotel... Juz sometink sweet today to add on before i tug in to bed....*keke*

Had a spendid double date after wk!! * dat includes rain, des, yuan & me!* Two " cartoon" guys were waiting patiently for us at the MRT after wk...haha..actually i do need some nice delicacies..had been wking too hard these paz few days...slog hard at wk..makin endless efforts to finish the "project" dat i was forced to put in charge..a burden it is..esp now it's CNY season....everyone seems to rush home...even me..i aso dread wking ot...there's aso some conflicts too.. okie, enuf of wk.... I hope this will be the last time...~

.....The buffet was excellent..we had two bowls of shark fin each, prawn cold dish, deer's meat cooked wif hot chilli, crispy fried prawns...etc..yummy....Our dearest Da sao and Des treated us..considered it a farewell dinner for xiao yuan...hmm...we stayed there from 7.30pm all the way till 10pm!!! cant believe i hv gained 2 kgs liaoz..! hee..~ okie...was tinking of bringin my family there in future..im sure they will love the food there...

we aso took alot of fotos outside the restn....Xiao yuan & i have intentions to design a foto book...basically i will be doin all the designs while he will do the touching up on the fotos..hmm..pretty excited abt tis....my first time lehz...! hope everytink will be completed by nx sun...dat is part of my surprise for him..i have aso another surprise for him...but im not saying..so sori...guys...hee~ it's my secret wor...! so sori xiao yuan..dun force me to tell u hor...! today was a happy day for mi... tis is the first time I hav been feeling so happy in my life... xiao yuan im glad u ar here wif me... ~